Simply Baffled

How a posture of staying simply baffled led me back to the posture of simply trusting

Simply Daunting

Do you remember how - just earlier this summer - I used to be dizzy and wobbly after only 30 seconds on the elliptical? Just the thought of spending 3 minutes on the elliptical sounded simply daunting.

Did I tell you how I thought the doctor was out of his mind when he suggested I work my way up to 3 minutes on the rowing machine as well?

Granted, he wanted me to add 5-10 seconds at a time but - still - I didn't think my brain could sustain that much back-and-forth movement. It seemed simply daunting.

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Simply Baffled

Months later, after consistently doing the prescribed exercises - many times through pain and aggravated symptoms - I've not only reached my doctor's goals for me - but I've also surpassed them!

Here are some records I hit this past week (with no ill effects afterward!):

• 11min and 45sec on the elliptical

• 3min and 30sec on the rowing machine

• Bending down to pick up a fallen item from the floor

• No pain after spending over 2hrs at a birthday party with loud music

• Extended time working on the computer

I literally can't believe it.

One doctor said I couldn't do it. Another said I'd surely throw up if I tried.

But I have truly been experiencing a miracle in my body! And I know these are direct responses to your prayers of faith.

From the deepest place inside my heart, I offer the humblest and most sincere "thank you."

Thank you for praying and believing alongside us.

Thank you for catching my tears when it all felt so daunting and impossible earlier this summer.

And thank you for celebrating these little-but-huge victories with us.

Progress has literally been coming in 5-10 second increments but we celebrate it nonetheless.

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Simply Trusting

If I'm honest, a couple of times this past week, I found myself despairing of all the things I still can't do right now rather than celebrating the progress I've experienced thus far (progress that's come in 5-10 increments over several months).

Yes, I want to be able to:

• look from side-to-side again.

• nod along in conversation again.

• overhear sounds from electronics without being in pain.

But I've been reminding my heart to intentionally (and yes, frequently) return to a heart posture of gratitude and awe.

I'm learning that a posture of staying simply baffled leads me back to the childlike posture of simply trusting.